Ugh.

Haven't written here in quite a while! Right now it's almost ten at night and I am currently on reserve battery on my computer. NaNo this year has been tough to me. Maybe because of pride, procrastination, and lack of my "discipline" I had last year, I just haven't had the vigor in me. No, this does not mean I am giving up. This simply means that I lowered my word count. I know. It hurts. I lowered it to...
15,000 words.
Don't gasp. Don't judge. I know. As I said, it hurts. I lowered my word count in HALF. It sucks. But I would rather finish NaNo on time on a low word count than miss it by a lot with a high word count. If that makes sense.
Anyway, I had less than four thousand words at the beginning of tonight and as of now I have over 7500. I am planning to maybe reach nine thousand or eight by the time I go to sleep. Then tomorrow it's another four thousand and the last day will be an easy two thousand. Granted, my writing right now sucks. The story is literally what the thoughts are in my head vomiting out on paper. I know, inappropriate use of the verb "to vomit." Whatever.
NaNo is about quantity and not quality. That much I have taken to heart. What I really need to work on is taking that a step further and actually writing within a plot and letting my imagination loose and let the characters take me there without me worrying about how good the writing is. It's about discovering myself as a writer and how my writing is and if I can actually make an idea good enough that's worth reading. That's what NaNoWriMo is about. Unfortunately, I don't have time for that right now.
Maybe next year.
Erica